It's been one week since Artitude ♥ And I MISS IT!! ): I'm sad that I can't go for sectionals today. I'm sad I can't show off my new black clothes today. I'm sad I can't complain about how tiring it is to carry a bass around HC. I'm sad I can't be criticised by Dr Tan. I'm sad I don't get to see Alvin and Alwyn. I'm sad I can't take that one hour bus ride with my bow case. I'm sad I can't meet Yuanmei at the HC bus stop. I'm sad I can't treat HC as my home for the next 12 hours. I'm sad I can't walk around HC in court shoes. I'm sad I can't have catered lunch with HC Symphony Orchestra. I'm sad I can't perform on stage today. I'm sad that I can't play bass together with my dearest senior and SL Shirlynn anymore. I MISS ARTITUDE ♥ D:

I must say I really really thank Dr Tan for all he has done for me.(: I feel so irresponsible, not taking part whole-heartedly during rehearsals sometimes, and Dr Tan never scolded me for any of my wrongdoings. He didn't make me go for auditions, because he knew I would be scared to go for auditions. He continuously encouraged me to never quit and persevere, even until the last moment before the concert. He has made my experience that much more memorable. Because of his help and guidance, I've become (hopefully) more responsible and active, and more willing to participate in extra activities. He gave me a bad first impression of the orchestra, but later changed my perspective completely, and made me love the orchestra. His last words to me after the concert: 'Hope to see you soon, Hilary!' Don't worry, I will definitely join your ensemble. Thank you, Dr Tan! (;

Now I can't remember what I usually do during the weekends. :\ No more rehearsals, no more practices. I have no idea what to do with all this free time in my hands. Tuition later, I guess I should finish my homework, but I have no mood. I have no mood for anything much right now, except for music, maybe. Music is my form of relaxation. It clears my mind, and leaves only the best memories.(: Love music ♥ I want to practise piano, but my brother is playing his horn right now -.- So I'll just go and watch dramas HAHA :D Can't talk to anyone online, because I have no mood to tolerate false statements and false enthusiasm. Besides, there's no one online I want to talk to right now. Why is it that someone you want to talk to at a certain time is never there?

I wish I could always be with those I love... Life wouldn't be perfect, but at least it will be worth it.

7.39pm.
Dammit I'm in a bad mood right now. I have no one to complain to other than my dear blog... Well that's one of the reasons I love my blog I guess, it always listens(: And judging by the amount of crap I say, that's a really hard thing to do.

I'm in a bad mood, or rather mixed mood, or even monotonous mood if there's such a thing. The reason I hate weekends is that somehow you always manage to be nagged at, somehow you always manage to be falsely accused of something, somehow there's no one there who you can depend on, who you can talk to with no boundaries. Weekends suck, because you're stuck at home with no friends. I sound like a typical teenager, but yes I do treasure my family, just that I don't find them the suitable companions to be with right now because of the mood I'm in.

Dear blog, thank you for always being there for me in my times of need, especially thankful that you let me crap at you all day long with absolutely no boundaries whatsoever. I love you, blog.(; Please never leave me, never get infected by computer viruses or anything like that, because I need you to vent all my anger and sadness and remorse and guilt and frustration and irritation, etc. I wish there was someone like you, who can be there for me all the time...

God, I need your help right now. Help me, Lord. Why am I so sad?


Artitude! ♥

It's been one week since Artitude ♥ And I MISS IT!! ): I'm sad that I can't go for sectionals today. I'm sad I can't show off my new black clothes today. I'm sad I can't complain about how tiring it is to carry a bass around HC. I'm sad I can't be criticised by Dr Tan. I'm sad I don't get to see Alvin and Alwyn. I'm sad I can't take that one hour bus ride with my bow case. I'm sad I can't meet Yuanmei at the HC bus stop. I'm sad I can't treat HC as my home for the next 12 hours. I'm sad I can't walk around HC in court shoes. I'm sad I can't have catered lunch with HC Symphony Orchestra. I'm sad I can't perform on stage today. I'm sad that I can't play bass together with my dearest senior and SL Shirlynn anymore. I MISS ARTITUDE ♥ D:

I must say I really really thank Dr Tan for all he has done for me.(: I feel so irresponsible, not taking part whole-heartedly during rehearsals sometimes, and Dr Tan never scolded me for any of my wrongdoings. He didn't make me go for auditions, because he knew I would be scared to go for auditions. He continuously encouraged me to never quit and persevere, even until the last moment before the concert. He has made my experience that much more memorable. Because of his help and guidance, I've become (hopefully) more responsible and active, and more willing to participate in extra activities. He gave me a bad first impression of the orchestra, but later changed my perspective completely, and made me love the orchestra. His last words to me after the concert: 'Hope to see you soon, Hilary!' Don't worry, I will definitely join your ensemble. Thank you, Dr Tan! (;

Now I can't remember what I usually do during the weekends. :\ No more rehearsals, no more practices. I have no idea what to do with all this free time in my hands. Tuition later, I guess I should finish my homework, but I have no mood. I have no mood for anything much right now, except for music, maybe. Music is my form of relaxation. It clears my mind, and leaves only the best memories.(: Love music ♥ I want to practise piano, but my brother is playing his horn right now -.- So I'll just go and watch dramas HAHA :D Can't talk to anyone online, because I have no mood to tolerate false statements and false enthusiasm. Besides, there's no one online I want to talk to right now. Why is it that someone you want to talk to at a certain time is never there?

I wish I could always be with those I love... Life wouldn't be perfect, but at least it will be worth it.

7.39pm.
Dammit I'm in a bad mood right now. I have no one to complain to other than my dear blog... Well that's one of the reasons I love my blog I guess, it always listens(: And judging by the amount of crap I say, that's a really hard thing to do.

I'm in a bad mood, or rather mixed mood, or even monotonous mood if there's such a thing. The reason I hate weekends is that somehow you always manage to be nagged at, somehow you always manage to be falsely accused of something, somehow there's no one there who you can depend on, who you can talk to with no boundaries. Weekends suck, because you're stuck at home with no friends. I sound like a typical teenager, but yes I do treasure my family, just that I don't find them the suitable companions to be with right now because of the mood I'm in.

Dear blog, thank you for always being there for me in my times of need, especially thankful that you let me crap at you all day long with absolutely no boundaries whatsoever. I love you, blog.(; Please never leave me, never get infected by computer viruses or anything like that, because I need you to vent all my anger and sadness and remorse and guilt and frustration and irritation, etc. I wish there was someone like you, who can be there for me all the time...

God, I need your help right now. Help me, Lord. Why am I so sad?


Artitude! ♥