Life just seems to be getting worse and worse. New deadlines all the time, new things keep pouring in, and MY LIBRARY BOOK IS LONG OVERDUE. Okay, that was random. But seriously, sometimes I feel as if I am just going to collapse one day from all this stress. So many responsibilities. So many commitments. I really think I should drop some of them.

I've not gone for 2 PSL general meetings already. D: I'm going to get demerit points!!! ARGH. Not that I wanted to skip both of them. I WAS BUSY! For the past two weeks I think all my recesses were completely occupied with crap. I think I may end up quitting PSL. Have been considering this for quite some time already, and I think the efforts put in are futile, so quitting may be a wise choice I guess...? I don't feel like I belong there anymore. I feel like I've been apart from PSL for too long. I feel disowned haha, but that's my own fault ultimately. I don't even wear the PSL badge any longer, I wear the BOM badge. Well, so many positions to take care of, I think it's a bit too overwhelming?

I love heart-to-heart conversations. (: Even if your audience is a teacher. Hey, this was different. It was a really nice and caring and understanding teacher(; Ms T must be the best co-form and Math teacher ever(: I was supposed to have a make-up Math remedial with her, but then I felt so stressed I just had to tell somebody. And since no one else was there with me during recess (one to one session), I had to pour it out on her haha. She listened with a good ear(: All my ranting and useless crapping was bombarded onto her. And then I realised that we haven't done any Math and I told her, and she said "You're already so stressed, I don't think I should force you to do any Math right now." Aww! Spent the whole recess, about 45 minutes, with her, just pouring out all my stress, my emotions, my personal thoughts, my feelings... I went, "I just want to pour my stress out on someone." and she said "Well I'm here. Bring it on!" Hahaha(: Sweet! So I poured everything out... Told her secrets I usually wouldn't tell any other adult... But she was understanding(: She wasn't against any of my actions, but she just gave me advice, really good advice. "Leave everything to God and He will bring you two together." Aww(: It rocks to have a Christian teacher as someone to pour out to(; I can't possibly write out all the details here, but I felt so much better after telling her all I had to say. Thankyou Ms T! :D

I'm blocked from communication again T.T Okay, I don't really mind the inconvenience, just that sometimes... Lovesick. I can't bear to be apart for so long. Well, maybe I can, but under a lot of pain and suffering and emoing... ):

HMP today, first one without Mr Chia D: It was still quite alright I guess, just less fun somewhat without him. It felt like something was missing. That nagging feeling at the back of your mind that something's not right, something's different and you don't like it. Yeah, but I guess today's lesson was still okay... Enjoyed all the performances (well maybe that was because it was background music to my daydreaming...), and conversations with mainly Yuanmei, Ashley, Joyce and Meri :D It always feels good to be around friends...(:

Mrs Ee told us of this Singapore Parliament thing where they were inviting people to play for them! :D YAY I'm playing HAHAHA. Playing with Ashley and Meri(: Ohno I feel so lousy beside them in terms of piano skills T.T Just hope I don't screw up :O And Meri's encouragement was nice(: Played Brahms' Intermezzo today, some interesting comments: "Wah that sounds like a really emo piece!" Yeah, that's probably why I like Brahms' music so much. So emotional, always can reflect what I feel inside. I was pretty surprised that my emotions then could actually be reflected through the music I played. Was emoing... D; Like I said, lovesick. Can't help it much.

Life just seems to be getting worse and worse. New deadlines all the time, new things keep pouring in, and MY LIBRARY BOOK IS LONG OVERDUE. Okay, that was random. But seriously, sometimes I feel as if I am just going to collapse one day from all this stress. So many responsibilities. So many commitments. I really think I should drop some of them.

I've not gone for 2 PSL general meetings already. D: I'm going to get demerit points!!! ARGH. Not that I wanted to skip both of them. I WAS BUSY! For the past two weeks I think all my recesses were completely occupied with crap. I think I may end up quitting PSL. Have been considering this for quite some time already, and I think the efforts put in are futile, so quitting may be a wise choice I guess...? I don't feel like I belong there anymore. I feel like I've been apart from PSL for too long. I feel disowned haha, but that's my own fault ultimately. I don't even wear the PSL badge any longer, I wear the BOM badge. Well, so many positions to take care of, I think it's a bit too overwhelming?

I love heart-to-heart conversations. (: Even if your audience is a teacher. Hey, this was different. It was a really nice and caring and understanding teacher(; Ms T must be the best co-form and Math teacher ever(: I was supposed to have a make-up Math remedial with her, but then I felt so stressed I just had to tell somebody. And since no one else was there with me during recess (one to one session), I had to pour it out on her haha. She listened with a good ear(: All my ranting and useless crapping was bombarded onto her. And then I realised that we haven't done any Math and I told her, and she said "You're already so stressed, I don't think I should force you to do any Math right now." Aww! Spent the whole recess, about 45 minutes, with her, just pouring out all my stress, my emotions, my personal thoughts, my feelings... I went, "I just want to pour my stress out on someone." and she said "Well I'm here. Bring it on!" Hahaha(: Sweet! So I poured everything out... Told her secrets I usually wouldn't tell any other adult... But she was understanding(: She wasn't against any of my actions, but she just gave me advice, really good advice. "Leave everything to God and He will bring you two together." Aww(: It rocks to have a Christian teacher as someone to pour out to(; I can't possibly write out all the details here, but I felt so much better after telling her all I had to say. Thankyou Ms T! :D

I'm blocked from communication again T.T Okay, I don't really mind the inconvenience, just that sometimes... Lovesick. I can't bear to be apart for so long. Well, maybe I can, but under a lot of pain and suffering and emoing... ):

HMP today, first one without Mr Chia D: It was still quite alright I guess, just less fun somewhat without him. It felt like something was missing. That nagging feeling at the back of your mind that something's not right, something's different and you don't like it. Yeah, but I guess today's lesson was still okay... Enjoyed all the performances (well maybe that was because it was background music to my daydreaming...), and conversations with mainly Yuanmei, Ashley, Joyce and Meri :D It always feels good to be around friends...(:

Mrs Ee told us of this Singapore Parliament thing where they were inviting people to play for them! :D YAY I'm playing HAHAHA. Playing with Ashley and Meri(: Ohno I feel so lousy beside them in terms of piano skills T.T Just hope I don't screw up :O And Meri's encouragement was nice(: Played Brahms' Intermezzo today, some interesting comments: "Wah that sounds like a really emo piece!" Yeah, that's probably why I like Brahms' music so much. So emotional, always can reflect what I feel inside. I was pretty surprised that my emotions then could actually be reflected through the music I played. Was emoing... D; Like I said, lovesick. Can't help it much.