Social Instability.
Well it does seem like I'm getting really emo nowadays. I guess my emotions do affect me quite a lot, as well as my social surroundings... I can now conclude that I have really high EQ :D in that bad sense. Hahaha.
Well I'm still socially stable, but there are close friends' problems which I cannot ignore. It gets complicated. I feel as if I'm stuck in the middle, expected to solve everything for the both of them somehow. I feel torn, I feel stretched. But I definitely cannot ignore my friends' problems, because then I don't deserve to call them my friends. I'm not the kind of person who will shy away when others come to me with problems troubling their minds. I do my best to help them. Yet this time I just don't know how. I want to help, but that may also mean I'll be putting my social status at stake. I'm not saying that I am obliged to keep my current social status (whatever it is) no matter what, but I'm saying that it may affect things outside of the social network. I want to help, but I don't really know what may happen if I do.
I don't see why people can actually give in to peer pressure relating to friends. Your circle of friends depends on you and you alone. It's your choice who you want your friends to be, not others'. It just gets annoying when someone ignores another because their friend tells them to do so, or when their friend doesn't like her. Have you ever thought that maybe the conflict between these two parties is just a big misunderstanding gone wrong? Not everything your friends say is true. Friends can be fun, friends can influence you, yes, but that does not mean that you bow down to whatever your friends say. The right to choose is yours, and you shouldn't let your emotions get in the way. Such a simple thing, yet when someone doesn't follow, it poses as such a big problem.
It's easy to see that you're trying to hide the truth from me. I'm your friend, I would know. It's disheartening to have to ask a third person for answers on something she isn't really involved in in the first place. If only life could be simpler. If only everyone could just be happy and be friends with everyone else. Sometimes, you realise what your friends really are on the inside, and you realise that they may not really be your friends after all.
I can't believe that I'm going through this again. I don't know when my life started falling apart this year. And it was going so well. I was planning to achieve so much. Now? I don't know what the future can bring.
On that sad note, allow me to summarise my NAPFA 2010.
Standing Broad Jump: 175cm (B)
Sit-ups: 35 (A)
Sit and Reach: 46cm (A)
Shuttlerun: 10.4 seconds (A)
Inclined pull-ups: 17 (A)
2.4km run: 14:42 (B)
Total: 28/30 (Gold)
Social Instability.
Well it does seem like I'm getting really emo nowadays. I guess my emotions do affect me quite a lot, as well as my social surroundings... I can now conclude that I have really high EQ :D in that bad sense. Hahaha.
Well I'm still socially stable, but there are close friends' problems which I cannot ignore. It gets complicated. I feel as if I'm stuck in the middle, expected to solve everything for the both of them somehow. I feel torn, I feel stretched. But I definitely cannot ignore my friends' problems, because then I don't deserve to call them my friends. I'm not the kind of person who will shy away when others come to me with problems troubling their minds. I do my best to help them. Yet this time I just don't know how. I want to help, but that may also mean I'll be putting my social status at stake. I'm not saying that I am obliged to keep my current social status (whatever it is) no matter what, but I'm saying that it may affect things outside of the social network. I want to help, but I don't really know what may happen if I do.
I don't see why people can actually give in to peer pressure relating to friends. Your circle of friends depends on you and you alone. It's your choice who you want your friends to be, not others'. It just gets annoying when someone ignores another because their friend tells them to do so, or when their friend doesn't like her. Have you ever thought that maybe the conflict between these two parties is just a big misunderstanding gone wrong? Not everything your friends say is true. Friends can be fun, friends can influence you, yes, but that does not mean that you bow down to whatever your friends say. The right to choose is yours, and you shouldn't let your emotions get in the way. Such a simple thing, yet when someone doesn't follow, it poses as such a big problem.
It's easy to see that you're trying to hide the truth from me. I'm your friend, I would know. It's disheartening to have to ask a third person for answers on something she isn't really involved in in the first place. If only life could be simpler. If only everyone could just be happy and be friends with everyone else. Sometimes, you realise what your friends really are on the inside, and you realise that they may not really be your friends after all.
I can't believe that I'm going through this again. I don't know when my life started falling apart this year. And it was going so well. I was planning to achieve so much. Now? I don't know what the future can bring.
On that sad note, allow me to summarise my NAPFA 2010.
Standing Broad Jump: 175cm (B)
Sit-ups: 35 (A)
Sit and Reach: 46cm (A)
Shuttlerun: 10.4 seconds (A)
Inclined pull-ups: 17 (A)
2.4km run: 14:42 (B)
Total: 28/30 (Gold)
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