Many things have transpired in the span of three days. The world we had so carefully crafted and perfected for ourselves has started to crumble. This time was really the most extreme. I didn't even know if I was making that call, saying those words for real, or if I knew it was a fake. With my parents listening discreetly, I could not really say anything I really wanted to say. All I could do was follow their instructions and, as they put it, "do what I needed to do". The words came out cold, awkward, and oddly, I felt emotionless throughout until much later, when I realised what I'd said. I guess I was just contemplating whether it was for real or not. It hurt when I realised the weight of my words. My heart felt like it was being torn into two.

But it isn't the end. Love prevails, no matter the circumstances. That call was a fake. Nothing has changed. The storm will never pull us apart. We'll stay together until the end of time. Nothing can change that fact. I'm sure of what I'm doing, and I know it's right. I just need the Lord on my side of the line. Love is a gamble, and I'm willing to bet my life on it. I know what I'm doing is right.

This situation has confused my heart. It caught me unawares. But whatever the case, my heart will always go back to you. So nothing has changed. I love you, and we'll stay together, forever and always. ♥

Last night was the last time I could listen to your voice, the last time we could talk freely before school reopens again tomorrow. I treasure these last moments, every last second of it. When school reopens, it'll be back to the old times: limited contact, concentrating more on the priorities in school. I pray that all will go smoothly, and that nothing will tear us apart, no matter what. We can get through this.


And on a side note, I'm totally not prepared for school to reopen. It's not homework, it's just the prospect of going back into that hectic lifestyle that I've been relieved from for so long. I don't know if I can get back on track, and continue down the path I've so carefully made for myself. This year was the best academic year in the whole of my high school life, and I'm not going to give that up just yet. I just need to get back on the right path. As a reflection of the last half of the year, I think there are many things I have to be thankful for:

I thank God for bringing me through this year so far. He has been my guide, and has always prevailed to guide me through all those hardships. He has strengthened me, made my resolve stronger, and He has helped me to mature greatly. Compared to last year, I've really gained much more wisdom and insight on the world, and I've found myself able to conquer obstacles I never thought would have been possible before. This year has been a fruitful year, the most fruitful one yet, and I'm really thankful for the smooth path I was able to take. Seeing some of my friends' worlds crumble, I really thank God for preventing these mishaps from distracting me.

I'm thankful for the beauty in life. When I look back into the past, I realise that this year, so much more meaning to life has been revealed to me. I've learnt to treasure it, and when everything seems to crumble, I look at all those beautiful things and be thankful for everything I have, instead of goading over the things I do not have. I've learnt to treasure everything in life, and be thankful for all that there is.

I'm thankful for my friends. I've found out who my true friends were this year. They're always there to support you, they're always there to be your listening ear, they know what you really feel even when you show your brightest smile. They know what will anger you, they know how to calm you down the quickest way, they know what to do when you're in a bad mood. So thank you, all my true friends, for always being there to support me, even when I'm unaware of it. You've all made my life that much more worth it. :)

That said, I really hope that the rest of this year will be fruitful, and that I'll continue to strive and get the future I want: a great life with you, with success, and everything we can get together :)

Many things have transpired in the span of three days. The world we had so carefully crafted and perfected for ourselves has started to crumble. This time was really the most extreme. I didn't even know if I was making that call, saying those words for real, or if I knew it was a fake. With my parents listening discreetly, I could not really say anything I really wanted to say. All I could do was follow their instructions and, as they put it, "do what I needed to do". The words came out cold, awkward, and oddly, I felt emotionless throughout until much later, when I realised what I'd said. I guess I was just contemplating whether it was for real or not. It hurt when I realised the weight of my words. My heart felt like it was being torn into two.

But it isn't the end. Love prevails, no matter the circumstances. That call was a fake. Nothing has changed. The storm will never pull us apart. We'll stay together until the end of time. Nothing can change that fact. I'm sure of what I'm doing, and I know it's right. I just need the Lord on my side of the line. Love is a gamble, and I'm willing to bet my life on it. I know what I'm doing is right.

This situation has confused my heart. It caught me unawares. But whatever the case, my heart will always go back to you. So nothing has changed. I love you, and we'll stay together, forever and always. ♥

Last night was the last time I could listen to your voice, the last time we could talk freely before school reopens again tomorrow. I treasure these last moments, every last second of it. When school reopens, it'll be back to the old times: limited contact, concentrating more on the priorities in school. I pray that all will go smoothly, and that nothing will tear us apart, no matter what. We can get through this.


And on a side note, I'm totally not prepared for school to reopen. It's not homework, it's just the prospect of going back into that hectic lifestyle that I've been relieved from for so long. I don't know if I can get back on track, and continue down the path I've so carefully made for myself. This year was the best academic year in the whole of my high school life, and I'm not going to give that up just yet. I just need to get back on the right path. As a reflection of the last half of the year, I think there are many things I have to be thankful for:

I thank God for bringing me through this year so far. He has been my guide, and has always prevailed to guide me through all those hardships. He has strengthened me, made my resolve stronger, and He has helped me to mature greatly. Compared to last year, I've really gained much more wisdom and insight on the world, and I've found myself able to conquer obstacles I never thought would have been possible before. This year has been a fruitful year, the most fruitful one yet, and I'm really thankful for the smooth path I was able to take. Seeing some of my friends' worlds crumble, I really thank God for preventing these mishaps from distracting me.

I'm thankful for the beauty in life. When I look back into the past, I realise that this year, so much more meaning to life has been revealed to me. I've learnt to treasure it, and when everything seems to crumble, I look at all those beautiful things and be thankful for everything I have, instead of goading over the things I do not have. I've learnt to treasure everything in life, and be thankful for all that there is.

I'm thankful for my friends. I've found out who my true friends were this year. They're always there to support you, they're always there to be your listening ear, they know what you really feel even when you show your brightest smile. They know what will anger you, they know how to calm you down the quickest way, they know what to do when you're in a bad mood. So thank you, all my true friends, for always being there to support me, even when I'm unaware of it. You've all made my life that much more worth it. :)

That said, I really hope that the rest of this year will be fruitful, and that I'll continue to strive and get the future I want: a great life with you, with success, and everything we can get together :)