Fallen.
It's kinda sad that Blogger doesn't let individual posts be private. It's either all public or all private. That's another thing I like about Livejournal -.- But nah I'm sticking with Blogger :)
Nothing much to post today, just feel like posting here for some reason. Have been compiling Geography notes the whole morning, and now I'm just mentally exhausted. And yet there's still so many things to do, so much homework and revision to be done. Feels like such a burden. :( Sometimes, I just wish my life had more life to it. I mean, right now my life is just: mug, eat, sleep, mug, eat, sleep, and nothing else. Kinda boring don't you think? I enjoy reading blogs where the posts are always filled with sweet reminiscence and the content is all activities and fun :D Maybe that's because I'm craving exactly for that. I try to spice up my life but it's not really working because there are just so many things pulling me down. D: After EOYs, my life shall be colourful I promise 8D
Well since this post has no particular focus (woah, I'm using Langarts terms here), I shall just rant about random things since I feel like it :)
First of all, I'm really really envious of people who managed to do well this term. Because for me, everything just went downhill this time. And I hate it that I'm affected so easily by these things. I don't know if it can be called perfectionist, but I feel like since I've fallen, I can't get back up again. Or even if I could, it will be too hard for me to do so. But I really want to buck up for EOYs, and I can't possibly fail anything again ._. Because if I do, well... that's it. So I have to work hard, even if I don't want to. I'm aiming to get at least 4 A1s for this year's EOYs. God bless me.
I'm craving for a new pencilcase :D The year is about three quarters over and I've been using the same pencilcase since the beginning of this year. I really want to have a change :) And I think those shiny pencilcases are really pretty! :D Not the pencilboxes, but the pencilcases. The shiny ones. Okay it's hard to describe here -.- Well anyway basically I really want a change in my pencilcase, but right now I can't, because I'm stuck with shitloads of work and revision to do :( AFTER EOYS! :D
I really pity those people who just can't get the person they really want to be with :( The craving and waiting itself becomes a heavy burden to the tired heart. And some people just can't give it up, and yeah I know it's hard to. My heart goes out to these people. And seeing them like that, I realise how fortunate I am to be so loved by so many people. So grateful for that :) Bless the hearts of those in pain and agony.
Looking at my really bad results, I'm really wondering if I can actually get to go out this holiday ._. Just one day of the holidays, just one day. Don't know if my parents will allow though :( What if they don't? Ahh. Well in order to encourage them to let me go, I'm going to show to them that I AM WORKING HARD. And I am! But not hard enough yet. :/ Still have many areas I can improve. Hope to get full focus soon!
Done ranting for now. :) Really feel like practising piano so let's go~
9.05pm.Going to borrow a bass guitar from Matthew from church! :D Had practice just now, and he taught me the basics of bass guitar :) It's so cool I'm SO gonna learn it well :D Matthew's going to lend me his bass guitar and his amplifier! Awesome right! I'll have three guitars in my room tomorrow! HAHA. But only one will be rightfully owned by me. Really wish I had my own bass guitar it's so cool!
That aside, practice today was better than expected :) But I'm actually really confused with the order of the songs right now -.- Need to get them right. And Matthew offered to play the hymns so that I could just concentrate on the singspiration songs :) So nice of him! The hymns are usually what I hate playing the most... But singspiration alone is fine :)
32 DAYS LEFT TO EOYS! :O Barely more than a month left and I have barely started! D: Need to focus, need to focus! And this means I have only 4 days to study each subject, which is... :/ I don't know if that'll be enough for some of the subjects like Geography and Biology. Argh okay let's just do our best!!
Fallen.
It's kinda sad that Blogger doesn't let individual posts be private. It's either all public or all private. That's another thing I like about Livejournal -.- But nah I'm sticking with Blogger :)
Nothing much to post today, just feel like posting here for some reason. Have been compiling Geography notes the whole morning, and now I'm just mentally exhausted. And yet there's still so many things to do, so much homework and revision to be done. Feels like such a burden. :( Sometimes, I just wish my life had more life to it. I mean, right now my life is just: mug, eat, sleep, mug, eat, sleep, and nothing else. Kinda boring don't you think? I enjoy reading blogs where the posts are always filled with sweet reminiscence and the content is all activities and fun :D Maybe that's because I'm craving exactly for that. I try to spice up my life but it's not really working because there are just so many things pulling me down. D: After EOYs, my life shall be colourful I promise 8D
Well since this post has no particular focus (woah, I'm using Langarts terms here), I shall just rant about random things since I feel like it :)
First of all, I'm really really envious of people who managed to do well this term. Because for me, everything just went downhill this time. And I hate it that I'm affected so easily by these things. I don't know if it can be called perfectionist, but I feel like since I've fallen, I can't get back up again. Or even if I could, it will be too hard for me to do so. But I really want to buck up for EOYs, and I can't possibly fail anything again ._. Because if I do, well... that's it. So I have to work hard, even if I don't want to. I'm aiming to get at least 4 A1s for this year's EOYs. God bless me.
I'm craving for a new pencilcase :D The year is about three quarters over and I've been using the same pencilcase since the beginning of this year. I really want to have a change :) And I think those shiny pencilcases are really pretty! :D Not the pencilboxes, but the pencilcases. The shiny ones. Okay it's hard to describe here -.- Well anyway basically I really want a change in my pencilcase, but right now I can't, because I'm stuck with shitloads of work and revision to do :( AFTER EOYS! :D
I really pity those people who just can't get the person they really want to be with :( The craving and waiting itself becomes a heavy burden to the tired heart. And some people just can't give it up, and yeah I know it's hard to. My heart goes out to these people. And seeing them like that, I realise how fortunate I am to be so loved by so many people. So grateful for that :) Bless the hearts of those in pain and agony.
Looking at my really bad results, I'm really wondering if I can actually get to go out this holiday ._. Just one day of the holidays, just one day. Don't know if my parents will allow though :( What if they don't? Ahh. Well in order to encourage them to let me go, I'm going to show to them that I AM WORKING HARD. And I am! But not hard enough yet. :/ Still have many areas I can improve. Hope to get full focus soon!
Done ranting for now. :) Really feel like practising piano so let's go~
9.05pm.Going to borrow a bass guitar from Matthew from church! :D Had practice just now, and he taught me the basics of bass guitar :) It's so cool I'm SO gonna learn it well :D Matthew's going to lend me his bass guitar and his amplifier! Awesome right! I'll have three guitars in my room tomorrow! HAHA. But only one will be rightfully owned by me. Really wish I had my own bass guitar it's so cool!
That aside, practice today was better than expected :) But I'm actually really confused with the order of the songs right now -.- Need to get them right. And Matthew offered to play the hymns so that I could just concentrate on the singspiration songs :) So nice of him! The hymns are usually what I hate playing the most... But singspiration alone is fine :)
32 DAYS LEFT TO EOYS! :O Barely more than a month left and I have barely started! D: Need to focus, need to focus! And this means I have only 4 days to study each subject, which is... :/ I don't know if that'll be enough for some of the subjects like Geography and Biology. Argh okay let's just do our best!!
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It's kinda sad that Blogger doesn't let individual posts be private. It's either all public or all private. That's another thing I like about Livejournal -.- But nah I'm sticking with Blogger :)