One thing to know about me: I suffer from serious paranoia. I think too much about things that I'm unsure about, and things that are not definite.

Over the course of these few days, I've found the perfect remedy for paranoia: amnesia. The best way to not think of something, is to forget it altogether. That way, you'll think that everything was as it seems, with your heart at ease, instead of fearing something which isn't even true. Paranoia usually causes emotional hurt that was never necessary in the first place, and that's just sad. I guess paranoia is a good thing in certain ways, but most of the time, it isn't. So with this remedy, hopefully my paranoia will one day cease to exist completely.

Happiness has an equation, that is, reality over expectation. As such, the lower your expectation, the higher the happiness you will have. For example, if the reality has a level of 10, your happiness will be higher if your expectation is only of level 2, rather than level 5. Happiness cannot simply be measured by things like income, but rather, like mentioned earlier, the level of you expectation as compared to reality.

On the other hand, if you invert the equation around and take expectation over reality, what you get is hope. You will strive to change the reality to at least the level of your expectation. That way, you can hope to achieve happiness of sort. That is what drives people to work towards their dreams.


LOL, okay, I don't really know why I wrote all that. Just came to mind all of a sudden yesterday. Anyway... I'm really on tenterhooks now because I don't know what my parents think of me going out with my friends on Monday :/ My dad was asking whether I could bring my younger brother to church for VBS in the morning, and I probably responded wrongly by saying that I was going out with my friends. :( Need to tell him that I can bring him to church, but then I'll be going out with my friends. I don't know what they think now, because when I told them that they were in a rush so I didn't really get to see their reactions... Ahh this is bad. :( Really want to go out with AMPowered on Monday! Just praying and hoping I'll be able to... It's been a long while since I last saw them!

12.26am.
I feel so horrible :( I feel pessimistic and absolutely depressed. Might have been because of how my dad blamed everything on me just now. His exact words: "Everything that goes wrong in the house is because of you". I know he was in a bad mood, perhaps because my mum was going overseas for work... But those words really hit me. Hard. Church tomorrow, just hope that the presence of God will overcome me and bring peace to my troubled soul...

Staying up later and later recently. Don't know why but just feel like it.

One thing to know about me: I suffer from serious paranoia. I think too much about things that I'm unsure about, and things that are not definite.

Over the course of these few days, I've found the perfect remedy for paranoia: amnesia. The best way to not think of something, is to forget it altogether. That way, you'll think that everything was as it seems, with your heart at ease, instead of fearing something which isn't even true. Paranoia usually causes emotional hurt that was never necessary in the first place, and that's just sad. I guess paranoia is a good thing in certain ways, but most of the time, it isn't. So with this remedy, hopefully my paranoia will one day cease to exist completely.

Happiness has an equation, that is, reality over expectation. As such, the lower your expectation, the higher the happiness you will have. For example, if the reality has a level of 10, your happiness will be higher if your expectation is only of level 2, rather than level 5. Happiness cannot simply be measured by things like income, but rather, like mentioned earlier, the level of you expectation as compared to reality.

On the other hand, if you invert the equation around and take expectation over reality, what you get is hope. You will strive to change the reality to at least the level of your expectation. That way, you can hope to achieve happiness of sort. That is what drives people to work towards their dreams.


LOL, okay, I don't really know why I wrote all that. Just came to mind all of a sudden yesterday. Anyway... I'm really on tenterhooks now because I don't know what my parents think of me going out with my friends on Monday :/ My dad was asking whether I could bring my younger brother to church for VBS in the morning, and I probably responded wrongly by saying that I was going out with my friends. :( Need to tell him that I can bring him to church, but then I'll be going out with my friends. I don't know what they think now, because when I told them that they were in a rush so I didn't really get to see their reactions... Ahh this is bad. :( Really want to go out with AMPowered on Monday! Just praying and hoping I'll be able to... It's been a long while since I last saw them!

12.26am.
I feel so horrible :( I feel pessimistic and absolutely depressed. Might have been because of how my dad blamed everything on me just now. His exact words: "Everything that goes wrong in the house is because of you". I know he was in a bad mood, perhaps because my mum was going overseas for work... But those words really hit me. Hard. Church tomorrow, just hope that the presence of God will overcome me and bring peace to my troubled soul...

Staying up later and later recently. Don't know why but just feel like it.