Savour.
It's the last day of 2010. Well, I don't really want this year to end, but as usual, time flew by, and this year probably flew by even more quickly than usual. There are so many things worth remembering for this year, and 2010 really taught me a lot of values. It takes time to mature, and now, at the end of 2010, I feel much more different than before.
The previous post was probably overrated; it was probably just my fault for thinking too much... But as the girl I really don't want to always be the one to initiate a conversation, and now it seems like he's already used to expecting me to start the conversation everyday. I don't know, I guess not talking to him for a day or two wouldn't hurt so much, but my subconscious is already used to starting the conversation. But my heart is always disappointed when I am the one to initiate the conversation. I don't really know when this will change... Unless I tell him up front.
Well, that aside, it's time to reflect upon this year as a whole. :)
First of all, this year has brought the largest (and probably also the most surprising) change in my life: the blessing that God has given me - Daniel. God has so graciously given me what I've dreamed of ever since 4 years ago in P6: a life with him. It's been slightly more than 10 months already, and I must say that these 10 months have brought for us many things, good and bad. Many people are saying that it's "cool" that people like us can sustain a relationship, but it has been really hard to bring it this far. Things that are worth it are the things we have to work for. And I'm not about to give up. Other than a relationship, God has given me a responsibility, a task, a test. It is to see if I can hold the stress of this relationship, and if I know my priorities, and it is helping me to grow, and helping me to realise so many values in life. This is a blessing, a burden I'm willing to carry, and at the end of next year, I hope to be able to still say the same thing. :)
The most important thing, of course, is God. I've drifted away from him this year, but God has brought me back to him, through His own form of discipline in November, towards the end of this year. I'm still neglecting Him sometimes, by not praying, not doing devotion, but I'm trying my best to hold this discipline in me, to always rely on God in everything. I have good friends who are helping me, and I'm really grateful for that. God knows that my best influence is from friends, and He has used it to help me. :) I'm really trying my best, and I will for always. God has helped me to get closer to Him, and I know that my relationship now has become much more intimate and close, and I'm really glad. From November, I've started my mission to finish the New Testament, and as of now I've finished Mark and Matthew, and just started on the Gospel of John. I'm trying to savour every detail of Jesus and how He changed our lives such that we can have eternal life. Christmas just passed, and what a joyous occassion it was! I'm glad for having such a fortunate life, with Christ introduced to me so early in my life.
God has blessed me with so many positions this year, such as the presidency in NYSE, and the place of monitor in my class. Through these things, He taught me the value of responsibility. I've learnt so much about responsibility this year. I have to stop thinking about myself all the time. Sometimes, there are things that we do not like but that we have to do just the same. I'm getting better, but there is also a lot of areas for improvement. I hope that by next year, I'll be able to say proudly that I've mastered responsibility.
There are so many little things this year that has brought me through so far :) Things like Artitude, Diluculum, and many more have moulded me to what I am today. I'm so glad for everything this year, and it feels so different than before. It's as if I've gotten a new life, awoken me to see even greater things. This year was awesome :)
Savour.
It's the last day of 2010. Well, I don't really want this year to end, but as usual, time flew by, and this year probably flew by even more quickly than usual. There are so many things worth remembering for this year, and 2010 really taught me a lot of values. It takes time to mature, and now, at the end of 2010, I feel much more different than before.
The previous post was probably overrated; it was probably just my fault for thinking too much... But as the girl I really don't want to always be the one to initiate a conversation, and now it seems like he's already used to expecting me to start the conversation everyday. I don't know, I guess not talking to him for a day or two wouldn't hurt so much, but my subconscious is already used to starting the conversation. But my heart is always disappointed when I am the one to initiate the conversation. I don't really know when this will change... Unless I tell him up front.
Well, that aside, it's time to reflect upon this year as a whole. :)
First of all, this year has brought the largest (and probably also the most surprising) change in my life: the blessing that God has given me - Daniel. God has so graciously given me what I've dreamed of ever since 4 years ago in P6: a life with him. It's been slightly more than 10 months already, and I must say that these 10 months have brought for us many things, good and bad. Many people are saying that it's "cool" that people like us can sustain a relationship, but it has been really hard to bring it this far. Things that are worth it are the things we have to work for. And I'm not about to give up. Other than a relationship, God has given me a responsibility, a task, a test. It is to see if I can hold the stress of this relationship, and if I know my priorities, and it is helping me to grow, and helping me to realise so many values in life. This is a blessing, a burden I'm willing to carry, and at the end of next year, I hope to be able to still say the same thing. :)
The most important thing, of course, is God. I've drifted away from him this year, but God has brought me back to him, through His own form of discipline in November, towards the end of this year. I'm still neglecting Him sometimes, by not praying, not doing devotion, but I'm trying my best to hold this discipline in me, to always rely on God in everything. I have good friends who are helping me, and I'm really grateful for that. God knows that my best influence is from friends, and He has used it to help me. :) I'm really trying my best, and I will for always. God has helped me to get closer to Him, and I know that my relationship now has become much more intimate and close, and I'm really glad. From November, I've started my mission to finish the New Testament, and as of now I've finished Mark and Matthew, and just started on the Gospel of John. I'm trying to savour every detail of Jesus and how He changed our lives such that we can have eternal life. Christmas just passed, and what a joyous occassion it was! I'm glad for having such a fortunate life, with Christ introduced to me so early in my life.
God has blessed me with so many positions this year, such as the presidency in NYSE, and the place of monitor in my class. Through these things, He taught me the value of responsibility. I've learnt so much about responsibility this year. I have to stop thinking about myself all the time. Sometimes, there are things that we do not like but that we have to do just the same. I'm getting better, but there is also a lot of areas for improvement. I hope that by next year, I'll be able to say proudly that I've mastered responsibility.
There are so many little things this year that has brought me through so far :) Things like Artitude, Diluculum, and many more have moulded me to what I am today. I'm so glad for everything this year, and it feels so different than before. It's as if I've gotten a new life, awoken me to see even greater things. This year was awesome :)
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It's the last day of 2010. Well, I don't really want this year to end, but as usual, time flew by, and this year probably flew by even more quickly than usual. There are so many things worth remembering for this year, and 2010 really taught me a lot of values. It takes time to mature, and now, at the end of 2010, I feel much more different than before.