Another tiring week... Have been falling asleep every night without even intending to. Gah. I'm really starting to feel "school fatigue".

Had a really bad day today. Particularly during piano lesson. Teacher was PMSing which made me begin to PMS too, and then my brother just had to pick a fight with me over my spoiled phone (which isn't really spoiled anymore). I seriously don't get what he'll gain if he wins me in such a debate. A sense of satisfaction maybe? But other than that, there's absolutely nothing at all. Sometimes I just don't know what his problem is.

And I just found out YESTERDAY that I was supposed to play for the head of the music workshop for exam purposes TOMORROW AFTERNOON. Guess who told me. Who else can there be?

Perhaps I'll ignore him for the next, oh I don't know, ten years hopefully?

That aside, this week was rather interesting, with talks in Chinese about relationships and break ups, and also a film which we viewed during LA lecture today - regarding WWII. Really a depressing movie, because from the Americans' view, all of them were clearly charging into their own deaths, and yet they still persevered and charged right ahead.

And I'm beginning to show a little more of my emotions in real life now. In the past no matter what I felt I'd always look happy on the outside, but now, this week in particular, I've actually smiled less, threw tantrums more, ignored people, laid people off, etc. Just little outbursts of the emotions screaming to get out. Though there's definitely much more where all that came from. No one has actually seen my true emotions. Except one person. Plus my family. I guess in a way that is a good thing? More emotions being shown means that I'll show my anger whenever something isn't done properly I guess? But showing my emotions more also means I'll be keeping my silence more often, especially when I'm depressed or sad. I'm revealing more and more of my true self, gradually.

I don't know whether to publicise my blog again now because there were some... private issues I ranted about in the previous posts... But I guess I will soon.
(I bet you were thinking of scrolling down to my previous posts lol.)

I'm so sorry I'm like this today, that I'm so moody on our eleventh. But honestly, teenage life really is depressing... So much homework, so little time, even though next Monday is a homelearning day. I need to step outside just to see if I can breathe.

Another tiring week... Have been falling asleep every night without even intending to. Gah. I'm really starting to feel "school fatigue".

Had a really bad day today. Particularly during piano lesson. Teacher was PMSing which made me begin to PMS too, and then my brother just had to pick a fight with me over my spoiled phone (which isn't really spoiled anymore). I seriously don't get what he'll gain if he wins me in such a debate. A sense of satisfaction maybe? But other than that, there's absolutely nothing at all. Sometimes I just don't know what his problem is.

And I just found out YESTERDAY that I was supposed to play for the head of the music workshop for exam purposes TOMORROW AFTERNOON. Guess who told me. Who else can there be?

Perhaps I'll ignore him for the next, oh I don't know, ten years hopefully?

That aside, this week was rather interesting, with talks in Chinese about relationships and break ups, and also a film which we viewed during LA lecture today - regarding WWII. Really a depressing movie, because from the Americans' view, all of them were clearly charging into their own deaths, and yet they still persevered and charged right ahead.

And I'm beginning to show a little more of my emotions in real life now. In the past no matter what I felt I'd always look happy on the outside, but now, this week in particular, I've actually smiled less, threw tantrums more, ignored people, laid people off, etc. Just little outbursts of the emotions screaming to get out. Though there's definitely much more where all that came from. No one has actually seen my true emotions. Except one person. Plus my family. I guess in a way that is a good thing? More emotions being shown means that I'll show my anger whenever something isn't done properly I guess? But showing my emotions more also means I'll be keeping my silence more often, especially when I'm depressed or sad. I'm revealing more and more of my true self, gradually.

I don't know whether to publicise my blog again now because there were some... private issues I ranted about in the previous posts... But I guess I will soon.
(I bet you were thinking of scrolling down to my previous posts lol.)

I'm so sorry I'm like this today, that I'm so moody on our eleventh. But honestly, teenage life really is depressing... So much homework, so little time, even though next Monday is a homelearning day. I need to step outside just to see if I can breathe.