Just had CCA camp these past two days... I think playing the silent bass during rehearsal was really "silent", considering that I really cannot hear myself playing, even with headphones on. I'm not sure whether there's a problem with the bass... ): Well other than that I think rehearsal was fun! The tune for Palladio is stuck in my head hahaha.

The Sec 3s organised the games for both days of camp, and I think it was pretty well done. :) The best thing about it is that we get to sit back and watch and not do anything hehehe. So that brings us down to our last two projects before stepping down officially from CCA. After which I can finally concentrate fully on my studies.

I'm still wondering whether I should take the Trinity LTCL Diploma exam :/ I think I'd most likely be taking it, reason being I'm hoping to major in music... But I'm not sure whether I will have enough time to practise... considering the fact that for ATCL I already had so little time ):


Anyway moving on to another subject, I heard this quote from C.S. Lewis in church on Sunday while someone was sharing his testimonial:

"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket - safe, dark, motionless, airless - it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.”
I'm not really sure how other people interpret this quote, but to me it seems like C.S. Lewis was advising everyone against loving anything or anyone. Of course it's true that people's hearts do change - our interests change, our characters change, our preferences change, our attitudes change. But what is it that determines these changes? Mainly, in my opinion, it's through experiences and the people you are with. Experiences may be good or bad, and people likewise, but it's up to you to decide how you want to be influenced.

My philosophy: you don't have to lock your heart up in order not to be hurt; rather, make a wise decision of who you want to open your heart completely to. Through meeting people, you get to know them, and you have an idea whether you like them or not. If you like the person and vice versa, and you feel that the other person is trustworthy and close enough to you, then why not open your heart to that one special person? You'll share the same interests as that person, and as you change, that special person will change too, because both of you have the same amount of great impact on each other.

I agree with C.S. Lewis that opening your heart and loving someone wholly will make you vulnerable. It'll make you vulnerable to your own emotions, so much so that you get controlled by them at one point, making decisions that are not necessarily sound. "Life is full of disappointments". Yes, there's bound to be some time when you get crushed because as a result of opening your heart, but the necessary question is: are you willing to go through that pain to love someone? Do you love that person more than you dread the pain that comes with it? If so, then wrap your heart not in "your (own) selfishness", but wrap it instead in this love, and in the end when you look back, you'll realise that all the pain you went through would have been worth it. As time passes, you'll find that what makes your heart stronger is the growing love in your heart. Find that one special person.

I'm feeling nerdy today heh. Well I'm leaving for church camp tomorrow, won't be back until Saturday! Hope it'll be an awesome time with God, and with my awesome church friends :)

Just had CCA camp these past two days... I think playing the silent bass during rehearsal was really "silent", considering that I really cannot hear myself playing, even with headphones on. I'm not sure whether there's a problem with the bass... ): Well other than that I think rehearsal was fun! The tune for Palladio is stuck in my head hahaha.

The Sec 3s organised the games for both days of camp, and I think it was pretty well done. :) The best thing about it is that we get to sit back and watch and not do anything hehehe. So that brings us down to our last two projects before stepping down officially from CCA. After which I can finally concentrate fully on my studies.

I'm still wondering whether I should take the Trinity LTCL Diploma exam :/ I think I'd most likely be taking it, reason being I'm hoping to major in music... But I'm not sure whether I will have enough time to practise... considering the fact that for ATCL I already had so little time ):


Anyway moving on to another subject, I heard this quote from C.S. Lewis in church on Sunday while someone was sharing his testimonial:

"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket - safe, dark, motionless, airless - it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.”
I'm not really sure how other people interpret this quote, but to me it seems like C.S. Lewis was advising everyone against loving anything or anyone. Of course it's true that people's hearts do change - our interests change, our characters change, our preferences change, our attitudes change. But what is it that determines these changes? Mainly, in my opinion, it's through experiences and the people you are with. Experiences may be good or bad, and people likewise, but it's up to you to decide how you want to be influenced.

My philosophy: you don't have to lock your heart up in order not to be hurt; rather, make a wise decision of who you want to open your heart completely to. Through meeting people, you get to know them, and you have an idea whether you like them or not. If you like the person and vice versa, and you feel that the other person is trustworthy and close enough to you, then why not open your heart to that one special person? You'll share the same interests as that person, and as you change, that special person will change too, because both of you have the same amount of great impact on each other.

I agree with C.S. Lewis that opening your heart and loving someone wholly will make you vulnerable. It'll make you vulnerable to your own emotions, so much so that you get controlled by them at one point, making decisions that are not necessarily sound. "Life is full of disappointments". Yes, there's bound to be some time when you get crushed because as a result of opening your heart, but the necessary question is: are you willing to go through that pain to love someone? Do you love that person more than you dread the pain that comes with it? If so, then wrap your heart not in "your (own) selfishness", but wrap it instead in this love, and in the end when you look back, you'll realise that all the pain you went through would have been worth it. As time passes, you'll find that what makes your heart stronger is the growing love in your heart. Find that one special person.

I'm feeling nerdy today heh. Well I'm leaving for church camp tomorrow, won't be back until Saturday! Hope it'll be an awesome time with God, and with my awesome church friends :)