A lot has happened over the past week; many tribulations, emotional roller coasters, etc. Don't really know when all this emotional stress will be over.

Went for HC Jam for the first time on Monday, and it was pretty awesome. :) Haven't really exercised my vocal cords in many years, and the vocal training on Monday just brought back all the memories and reignited my love for singing. Everyone there is really friendly too. It wasn't the same as choir because this time it was on pop music and each of us had to sing in front of everyone else; techniques are very different but still enjoyed it. :) Was welcomed with an invitation for all new members to sing for everyone, and was pretty nervous about it for some time. Sang "Heart of Worship" for them because I couldn't really think of any other song offhand, and was pleasantly surprised when someone harmonised with my singing. The experience on Monday was lovely, especially after over four years spent in Strings. Something fresh and new :) And the atmosphere was so warm, how everyone was supporting one another. I think I will stay in vocals and not play in the band, because 1) I already have a lot of opportunities to play in a band for church, 2) because singing is awesome.

I've been feeling really stressed lately, mainly because I can't catch up with the pace of JC. Well, among other things. I feel like somehow I'm always behind time and I never seem to have prepared myself for any tutorial, even though it seems like I'm trying so hard to keep up and finish all my work. Really not coping well, and I think I need to get help soon. Seem to be failing everything, even when I can actually keep up with lectures. Feeling so stressed I can barely take it. ): And I am emotionally leaking. I'm letting the stress get to me and in turn I'm hurting the people I care for, which causes even more stress. It is a really big jump from Sec 4 to JC, in all aspects of those words. It's been a few months and yet I'm still not used to it. :/ Need to get something done about it soon.

On a side note, H2 Music lessons are getting really interesting :) Especially love what we're learning for Western music now - Beethoven's Eroica Symphony. Brings back so many memories and recollections of Sec 4 and I just love how people are able to craft such beautiful masterpieces. :) I have awesome Music classmates too ;)

Still getting that sinking feeling when I see anything regarding Council, be it online or in school. Even seeing Council gathering together in school makes me feel a little disheartened. Sometimes I just wonder what it would have been like if I had been elected, but oh well, what can I do now? Just have to get used to it I guess.

Had a good heart-to-heart talk with PH on the bus on the way home after rehearsal today. Talked about one main thing and I'm so grateful that I could rant to someone for a while. Got some good advice from him and cleared a few doubts. Just hope all will work out in the end, eventually.

Priorities are clashing with emotions which are causing complications all over the place. Gonna just have to take things one step at a time, not think about what's in the past and keep moving forward. The prospect of giving up should be at the back of my mind all the time. No giving up halfway. The problems I'm having are so trivial. Succumbing to failure would just be plain stupid. Suck it up, Hil.

A lot has happened over the past week; many tribulations, emotional roller coasters, etc. Don't really know when all this emotional stress will be over.

Went for HC Jam for the first time on Monday, and it was pretty awesome. :) Haven't really exercised my vocal cords in many years, and the vocal training on Monday just brought back all the memories and reignited my love for singing. Everyone there is really friendly too. It wasn't the same as choir because this time it was on pop music and each of us had to sing in front of everyone else; techniques are very different but still enjoyed it. :) Was welcomed with an invitation for all new members to sing for everyone, and was pretty nervous about it for some time. Sang "Heart of Worship" for them because I couldn't really think of any other song offhand, and was pleasantly surprised when someone harmonised with my singing. The experience on Monday was lovely, especially after over four years spent in Strings. Something fresh and new :) And the atmosphere was so warm, how everyone was supporting one another. I think I will stay in vocals and not play in the band, because 1) I already have a lot of opportunities to play in a band for church, 2) because singing is awesome.

I've been feeling really stressed lately, mainly because I can't catch up with the pace of JC. Well, among other things. I feel like somehow I'm always behind time and I never seem to have prepared myself for any tutorial, even though it seems like I'm trying so hard to keep up and finish all my work. Really not coping well, and I think I need to get help soon. Seem to be failing everything, even when I can actually keep up with lectures. Feeling so stressed I can barely take it. ): And I am emotionally leaking. I'm letting the stress get to me and in turn I'm hurting the people I care for, which causes even more stress. It is a really big jump from Sec 4 to JC, in all aspects of those words. It's been a few months and yet I'm still not used to it. :/ Need to get something done about it soon.

On a side note, H2 Music lessons are getting really interesting :) Especially love what we're learning for Western music now - Beethoven's Eroica Symphony. Brings back so many memories and recollections of Sec 4 and I just love how people are able to craft such beautiful masterpieces. :) I have awesome Music classmates too ;)

Still getting that sinking feeling when I see anything regarding Council, be it online or in school. Even seeing Council gathering together in school makes me feel a little disheartened. Sometimes I just wonder what it would have been like if I had been elected, but oh well, what can I do now? Just have to get used to it I guess.

Had a good heart-to-heart talk with PH on the bus on the way home after rehearsal today. Talked about one main thing and I'm so grateful that I could rant to someone for a while. Got some good advice from him and cleared a few doubts. Just hope all will work out in the end, eventually.

Priorities are clashing with emotions which are causing complications all over the place. Gonna just have to take things one step at a time, not think about what's in the past and keep moving forward. The prospect of giving up should be at the back of my mind all the time. No giving up halfway. The problems I'm having are so trivial. Succumbing to failure would just be plain stupid. Suck it up, Hil.