When Life Gives You Lemons.
Even after two whole days of school after Q&A and GE, I'm still so affected by the results. Sometimes I just become so depressed at how my group put in so much time and effort to do up everything for campaigning and elections, and yet none of us managed to get elected in the end. Sometimes I feel that all that went down the drain when our names weren't called out. And sometimes I feel like it's unfair. Unfair that some people have so much advantage over others.
Other times I'm just sad that I never seem to be able to do anything well. Everything I try turns into failure. Why can't I be one of those people who just seem to excel in every single thing they do? It feels like I'm the total opposite of that. Failing in academics, failing in relationships, failing in commitments up down left and right.
I'm questioning my identity, my purpose in this life. I know I should be steadfast and I should know, and yes I do, but sometimes I wonder what God has in store for me. What's my purpose on this earth? Because it seems like I'm not coming anywhere close to finding His purpose for me. I guess the only thing I can do is wait, and trust in Him to know what's best for me.
I've realised over the past two days that since I didn't manage to get elected into Council, I can now go for Good Friday and Easter Sunday this week in church, and even better, I can go for the Cambodia Youth mission trip at the end of this year. Perhaps this is one of the many reasons why God has predestined me not to be in Council. Council is fun and an unforgettable experience, I won't deny that. But perhaps God wants to give me another form of happiness and joy in this life, perhaps something He thinks will mould me into a much better person.
Oh well, looks like it's going to be another two years in Strings, this time HCSE. Experience so far has been really fun, and it's nice to be making music together with people you already know. Time to get settled down then.
On a side note, went for my first Ben & Jerry's Free Cone Day yesterday together with a few of H2 Music people. :) I love how we always come up with random impromptu gatherings and they always turn out to be so memorable. Went to The Cathay and realised that the queue was two stories LONG at around 7.15pm when the offer was going to stop at 8pm! But went to queue nonetheless because we were so awesome haha. And while we were queueing and waiting a B&J promoter actually came and gave us two vouchers to redeem two tubs of ice-cream without having to queue!! Felt really bad but glad at the same time that we didn't have to queue the whole way. :P Ate the ice-cream together outside The Cathay and had a lot of fun! :)
To end off with a quote from Tumblr:
I really need to learn from this, appreciate what happened, move on and look towards what God wants me to be.
VOTD:
"In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God's grace." Ephesians 1:7 (NIV)
When Life Gives You Lemons.
Even after two whole days of school after Q&A and GE, I'm still so affected by the results. Sometimes I just become so depressed at how my group put in so much time and effort to do up everything for campaigning and elections, and yet none of us managed to get elected in the end. Sometimes I feel that all that went down the drain when our names weren't called out. And sometimes I feel like it's unfair. Unfair that some people have so much advantage over others.
Other times I'm just sad that I never seem to be able to do anything well. Everything I try turns into failure. Why can't I be one of those people who just seem to excel in every single thing they do? It feels like I'm the total opposite of that. Failing in academics, failing in relationships, failing in commitments up down left and right.
I'm questioning my identity, my purpose in this life. I know I should be steadfast and I should know, and yes I do, but sometimes I wonder what God has in store for me. What's my purpose on this earth? Because it seems like I'm not coming anywhere close to finding His purpose for me. I guess the only thing I can do is wait, and trust in Him to know what's best for me.
I've realised over the past two days that since I didn't manage to get elected into Council, I can now go for Good Friday and Easter Sunday this week in church, and even better, I can go for the Cambodia Youth mission trip at the end of this year. Perhaps this is one of the many reasons why God has predestined me not to be in Council. Council is fun and an unforgettable experience, I won't deny that. But perhaps God wants to give me another form of happiness and joy in this life, perhaps something He thinks will mould me into a much better person.
Oh well, looks like it's going to be another two years in Strings, this time HCSE. Experience so far has been really fun, and it's nice to be making music together with people you already know. Time to get settled down then.
On a side note, went for my first Ben & Jerry's Free Cone Day yesterday together with a few of H2 Music people. :) I love how we always come up with random impromptu gatherings and they always turn out to be so memorable. Went to The Cathay and realised that the queue was two stories LONG at around 7.15pm when the offer was going to stop at 8pm! But went to queue nonetheless because we were so awesome haha. And while we were queueing and waiting a B&J promoter actually came and gave us two vouchers to redeem two tubs of ice-cream without having to queue!! Felt really bad but glad at the same time that we didn't have to queue the whole way. :P Ate the ice-cream together outside The Cathay and had a lot of fun! :)
To end off with a quote from Tumblr:
I really need to learn from this, appreciate what happened, move on and look towards what God wants me to be.
VOTD:
"In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God's grace." Ephesians 1:7 (NIV)
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