Happy Chinese New Year to all! :D 初二 today and I'm lazing at home typing away. CNY this year felt slightly different compared to last year; to simply put it, many things have changed since CNY last year. Can't help but feel that one year passed by so quickly; I remember more than a year ago celebrating CNY in HC and being so amazed at how Council managed to put up the centerpiece in the central plaza. Also, this year there are a couple of additions into the Tan family - my two cousin-in-laws. Made me realise how my cousins are all growing up and slowly getting married one by one, a contrast to how last time we used to jump on a bed together and play board games during CNY gatherings. Something my Dutch cousin-in-law said to me in front of other cousins last night: "Soon it's gonna be your turn to get married huh!" I went, "Huh no let me get through A Levels first hahaha." And then another cousin (another one who got married late last year) said, "I'm sure when she's ready there'll be a queue of guys lining up and waiting for her." Felt quite flattered at that comment haha, though I'm not sure it's true. Also realised that at this time next year I would have finished A Levels, and it's all the more scary because I just don't know how the outcome for my As will be; still only at the start of preparing for them. There's still a long way to go.

So this year's CNY was more of a reflective one rather than an all-play one. It's scary and intriguing how things change so much in the course of a year. Though some things never change, like how my mum's side always follows the traditional cycle of 拜年, where everyone must give seniors well-wishes one by one before receiving hongbaos, while my dad's side is just really happy to reunite together as a family, eating together and bonding with each other (while hongbaos are just given out amid all the chaos). Love all of them :)


Is it wrong for me to feel jealous when I see the two of them? I know I shouldn't be, and I probably should start controlling my own emotions. There's no point being jealous anyway. Need to slap myself in the face and stay in reality rather than foolishly fantasizing over stupid things. I'm just bringing sadness to myself.

Happy Chinese New Year to all! :D 初二 today and I'm lazing at home typing away. CNY this year felt slightly different compared to last year; to simply put it, many things have changed since CNY last year. Can't help but feel that one year passed by so quickly; I remember more than a year ago celebrating CNY in HC and being so amazed at how Council managed to put up the centerpiece in the central plaza. Also, this year there are a couple of additions into the Tan family - my two cousin-in-laws. Made me realise how my cousins are all growing up and slowly getting married one by one, a contrast to how last time we used to jump on a bed together and play board games during CNY gatherings. Something my Dutch cousin-in-law said to me in front of other cousins last night: "Soon it's gonna be your turn to get married huh!" I went, "Huh no let me get through A Levels first hahaha." And then another cousin (another one who got married late last year) said, "I'm sure when she's ready there'll be a queue of guys lining up and waiting for her." Felt quite flattered at that comment haha, though I'm not sure it's true. Also realised that at this time next year I would have finished A Levels, and it's all the more scary because I just don't know how the outcome for my As will be; still only at the start of preparing for them. There's still a long way to go.

So this year's CNY was more of a reflective one rather than an all-play one. It's scary and intriguing how things change so much in the course of a year. Though some things never change, like how my mum's side always follows the traditional cycle of 拜年, where everyone must give seniors well-wishes one by one before receiving hongbaos, while my dad's side is just really happy to reunite together as a family, eating together and bonding with each other (while hongbaos are just given out amid all the chaos). Love all of them :)


Is it wrong for me to feel jealous when I see the two of them? I know I shouldn't be, and I probably should start controlling my own emotions. There's no point being jealous anyway. Need to slap myself in the face and stay in reality rather than foolishly fantasizing over stupid things. I'm just bringing sadness to myself.