What emotion is unbearable to you? Apart from the obvious heartbreak or overwhelming sadness? For me, it's anger. Because I have a terrible temper. Like, a really, really bad one. If you haven't seen me flare up from 0 to 100% in a matter of seconds before, then you probably don't know me well enough haha.

My temper is so bad that sometimes I don't even recognise myself. When I get angry, I say and do things on impulse, which I wouldn't do if I had a calm mind (obviously). But we all have those moments, don't we? For me, when I flare up I barely even know the person I turn into. I spit words of disgust and spill everything bad that's on my mind to whoever I feel like directing it to, even if the subject I refer to is them. I tell them to shut up, to "**** off", that I don't ever want to see their faces, etc. you name it. And it makes me feel good to say such things at that point of time. Of course I regret most of it later when I calm myself down and think rationally again.

Perhaps the way I behave when I'm angry today is because of how I treated anger in the past. In previous years I wouldn't dare to lash out at anyone when I was angry or discontented because I simply didn't want people to get hurt by my words or to think that someone isn't happy with them. In the past, I would hide my anger to protect the people I care about. I guess you could say that I was hiding who I really was with a smile on the surface. And today my true self has revealed itself more, in a sense. Or maybe I'm just not afraid of expressing my own discontentment and anger anymore. I suppose it could be both a good and bad thing.

But I've also changed with time. Sometimes anger just hits me in the face without any warning. It may be because of something which happened a few months ago, or something that happened 5 seconds before. And when an emotion like anger hits you so strongly when you don't expect it, you don't really know what to do with it either. So, most of the time, I let it take over me. I lash out at people I feel annoyed with. I release angst in the atmosphere wherever I go. It takes a great deal of effort now to keep it inside and to control it.

At the other extreme end, I become extremely cold towards others, usually the ones I love the most. I completely ignore them when they talk to me, I try to think of things that I can get angry with them for, and I completely forgo their feelings towards my actions. But they don't deserve that.

I know that most of the time my anger affects those I care about, my friends, my family, in a bad way. 2 things may happen: they may get annoyed with me being angry for seemingly no reason, or they may become afraid to approach or even talk to me. It's not right for them to be treated this way when they did nothing wrong. My flaring up at them would be completely my fault when they had nothing to do with it.

I need to be more cautious with my emotions, and to always keep them in check. I don't really know why (stress?), but these days my emotions are all really unstable and very extreme. I really need to tone down my emotions, especially those which do no one good. There really isn't any reason to get emotional over minor and petty things and to make such a big fuss about them.

What emotion is unbearable to you? Apart from the obvious heartbreak or overwhelming sadness? For me, it's anger. Because I have a terrible temper. Like, a really, really bad one. If you haven't seen me flare up from 0 to 100% in a matter of seconds before, then you probably don't know me well enough haha.

My temper is so bad that sometimes I don't even recognise myself. When I get angry, I say and do things on impulse, which I wouldn't do if I had a calm mind (obviously). But we all have those moments, don't we? For me, when I flare up I barely even know the person I turn into. I spit words of disgust and spill everything bad that's on my mind to whoever I feel like directing it to, even if the subject I refer to is them. I tell them to shut up, to "**** off", that I don't ever want to see their faces, etc. you name it. And it makes me feel good to say such things at that point of time. Of course I regret most of it later when I calm myself down and think rationally again.

Perhaps the way I behave when I'm angry today is because of how I treated anger in the past. In previous years I wouldn't dare to lash out at anyone when I was angry or discontented because I simply didn't want people to get hurt by my words or to think that someone isn't happy with them. In the past, I would hide my anger to protect the people I care about. I guess you could say that I was hiding who I really was with a smile on the surface. And today my true self has revealed itself more, in a sense. Or maybe I'm just not afraid of expressing my own discontentment and anger anymore. I suppose it could be both a good and bad thing.

But I've also changed with time. Sometimes anger just hits me in the face without any warning. It may be because of something which happened a few months ago, or something that happened 5 seconds before. And when an emotion like anger hits you so strongly when you don't expect it, you don't really know what to do with it either. So, most of the time, I let it take over me. I lash out at people I feel annoyed with. I release angst in the atmosphere wherever I go. It takes a great deal of effort now to keep it inside and to control it.

At the other extreme end, I become extremely cold towards others, usually the ones I love the most. I completely ignore them when they talk to me, I try to think of things that I can get angry with them for, and I completely forgo their feelings towards my actions. But they don't deserve that.

I know that most of the time my anger affects those I care about, my friends, my family, in a bad way. 2 things may happen: they may get annoyed with me being angry for seemingly no reason, or they may become afraid to approach or even talk to me. It's not right for them to be treated this way when they did nothing wrong. My flaring up at them would be completely my fault when they had nothing to do with it.

I need to be more cautious with my emotions, and to always keep them in check. I don't really know why (stress?), but these days my emotions are all really unstable and very extreme. I really need to tone down my emotions, especially those which do no one good. There really isn't any reason to get emotional over minor and petty things and to make such a big fuss about them.