A new month, again. It feels like 2014 is going by too quickly. Still unsure of the future and the path I'll take. At a crossroad where a lot of thinking and overthinking and speculation is involved. Another month of new experiences, of joy, hurt, happiness, pain, disappointment. Things may happen, we just don't know yet.

-xx-

I just want you to know this: you aren't the only one hurting. Call me selfish, but by shutting yourself away from your loved ones, you hurt them. You don't feel it because you're buried in your own miserable pit of self-pity. You're surrounded by your own negativity and it traps you in a well so deep that you do not realise the things you are doing to the people around you. You are selfish for wallowing in your own shit and for refusing to open up to anyone who wants to help you. People want to share your pain, to share your sorrows and bitterness and you just shut them out because you "don't feel like talking" and "want to be left alone". Doing so is like piercing a million nails in their souls. You expect people to help and make you feel better but you don't take the initiative to open up; how then is anyone supposed to help you, even if they wanted to?

You think you're hurting the most; but oh how incredibly wrong you are.

A new month, again. It feels like 2014 is going by too quickly. Still unsure of the future and the path I'll take. At a crossroad where a lot of thinking and overthinking and speculation is involved. Another month of new experiences, of joy, hurt, happiness, pain, disappointment. Things may happen, we just don't know yet.

-xx-

I just want you to know this: you aren't the only one hurting. Call me selfish, but by shutting yourself away from your loved ones, you hurt them. You don't feel it because you're buried in your own miserable pit of self-pity. You're surrounded by your own negativity and it traps you in a well so deep that you do not realise the things you are doing to the people around you. You are selfish for wallowing in your own shit and for refusing to open up to anyone who wants to help you. People want to share your pain, to share your sorrows and bitterness and you just shut them out because you "don't feel like talking" and "want to be left alone". Doing so is like piercing a million nails in their souls. You expect people to help and make you feel better but you don't take the initiative to open up; how then is anyone supposed to help you, even if they wanted to?

You think you're hurting the most; but oh how incredibly wrong you are.